(in)significant moments

1.

i painted my nails for the first time since i was twelve

i thought the new look would give me a fresh start.

yet, i can't stop staring at my hands.

they appear foreign to me,

diverting my attention.

perhaps that was the plan.

2.

they always tell you,

you should wear your nicest underwear

to the most insignificant of places:

the super market,

the video store.

incase you get into an accident

and the paramedic who has to remove them is cute.

i think i need to start doing that more often.

3.

i got my nose pierced for the third time

this is me trying to fulfill some rebel void

sometimes all this good girl stuff,

it just goes to my head.

and what can't they understand?

sometimes a good girl,

she just wants to be bad.

cabinet conscious

i left the cabinet open again.

i have a habit of leaving things open.  

it's something about the accessibility, the ease of not having to open or close, not having to start or finish.  just getting to what you want, what you need.

 

geese are forever.

i want to live and love like the geese do. i want to mate for life and stay together for all seasons.

this is all unchartered territory for me. for years, i've had this fascination with/fear of blogs. this whole idea of making my thoughts and ideas available to you (all of you) is as terrifying as it is liberating. but here i am, four sentances into my first blog ever and i'm feeling this sense of self-satisfaction with just being here (all unprotected and uncensored) and for just typing these lines and just opening this door...